so today was pretty retarted. i went to school late, yet again so i didnt have to see the fly squadren dudes that i have seen every year since kindergarten. first block was okk we did nothing and second bombed my test. come gym it got better but lunch i got really mad at steve britt for running his mouth and not shutting up. also me and my friend or “friend” however you would like to put it, are fighting. why idk people tell her i said something about her and was talking shit. and i for one know i was not… i know how to be a true friend and i know how to stay honest to people. and she couldnt get that across. one thing that is really bothering is when your best friend tells you basically that she doesnt trust you. like come on i thought we’re best friends i trust you why dont you trust me. at the end of the day i called her because i was tired of texting and recieving 50 millions text messages at once. i was extremly heated just going off because i needed to vent. but i felt whenever i tried to say something i was just get shut out. so i hung up (and when i hang up you know there is a problem). then she called back and i finally got my some what turn to talk. i said what i needed told her i said nothing but sadly she still did not believe me. and i was just getting tired of fighting so i was going to apologize just to get it over and done with and move on and try to work things out. but then she said something that really hurt me something that really pushed it over the limits, i drew the line there and hung the phone up on her and turned it off. later i texted her saying do not talk to me and expressed why. i feel i did the right thing but yet i also feel it could have been prevented. i honestly feel this isnt my fault, i may have let my anger get in my way but i truthfully and honestly did not lie and she wasnt going to have it, so why do i do right?
just drama lately has been driving me up the walls. im so tired of uxbridge i dont go to school anymore like maybe i will go once a week for a whole day, and by the end of the day im pooped out. so much has gone on in the year and its caused people to think twice about me. many people have awful things to say about me and truthfully so be it, i really dont care what people say about me. all those things use to bother me but after going through as much as i have i sappose you get use to it and it doesnt bother you at all. its their opinion they do have a right to think what they want even if its wrong and they misjudge me, but im confident enough to hold my head high and hopefully one day prove them all wrong. i stay strong through no matter what, and thats how i’m going to be you cant change me… not again.