ok so i dont use this shit any more and i have recently deleted my formspring. honestly i’m done with all the bullshit people have. i’m done being like them i have changed my ways and i am no longers judging everything and everyone. the people on my formspring are honestly sick in the head stalking it and reading every answer that i put i mean come one get a life. and yes who ever the person was that said i’m glad cphil beat the shit out of you really is fuckkked up like i would never ever ever say that to some one no matter how much i hated them. that is completly awful and the lowest a person probably could go. i really hope that person felt like shit because that is just so wrong and awful on all levels posssible. and people stop calling me a whore and stop being so damn concerned with my sex life it doesnt involve you so get out of it. neither of you are in my life so stop being so damn concerned with that too. and really i’m so done with all your little drama and bull shit. i’m better than all of you. think what you may but i know the facts i dont go on peoples formspring posting shit just to make myself feel better. i’m done being rude and stuck up. i’m done being like all you little bitches. you all honestly can grow up and move on. and the whole sarah shit i dont even care she is out of my life for the wayy better, i love everything that is happeneing to me now. everyone in my life belongs there and everyone that is out belongs there. i’m done with her she doesnt even exist to me so if you ever read this sarah i’m done. not even bringing your name up you are not worth my time. i know you were involved with the shit on my formspring i know what you are like and how you write. deny it whatever i dont honestly care its gone because its stupid and i dont need to see every god damn day that you all think i’m some worthless whore with no friends. because i do and they all respect me and accept me for all the differeneces and wrong doings. so good bye to all you haters and shit talkers. good job trying to bring me down but it never ever will what doesnt kill me will only make me stronger. grow up and stop being so conceded. because i’m no longer like any of you i’ve moved on.
how things change so quickly for the good and then bad
for me i believe its finally the good;
i have a great guy in my life who treats me wonderfully hes seriously one of a kind so goofy just perfect and i am crazy about him and i havent felt like this ever since chris…
i promised him i would always be honest with him and honesty has always been an issue because i’m so embarassed of my past and all the things i have done, but he doesnt judge me he sees me for the girl i am NOW not THEN. he knows i care so much about him and i know he cares so much about me.
you know what i went on my formspring like a few days ago on my moms laptop because its doesnt work on my computer and the things people say really is cruel, does it really affect me no it just gets me wondering why people can have so much hate towards eachother. what makes a girl such a whore or just so ugly. and not trying to sound cocky or bitchy but i’m not ugly and a whore no i have made mistakes i am human, and the people who judge and critized are usually your friends or so called friends. which i just believe is awful why pretend to be friends with someone when your just going to talk shit about them all the time. im not gonna lie i have said things about friends but its was usually out of anger. i dont judge my friends and i try not to judge other i understand no one is perfect i mean look at me. i’m the perfect example of a total screw up but i’ve changed my ways and my life for the better took people out that i know i dont need and brought people closer that i know i do need.
so if your going to judge me fine i’m not going to try and be tough and say stuff about you i’ll let you state your opinions and critisize. just remember your not perfect either and would you want someone saying the exact words your saying about me to you? its totally different when the tables are turned isnt it.
god created people to be unique and different not to be all the same and perfect he created people to be able to have their own mind frame some love some hate but just remember the lovers will make us strong but the haters will always make us stronger.
i have the people i need in my life and the people i want. and the ones who were not important at all are outt!
my past week has been prob the best week ever i hope my whole summer is like this
Crush a bit, little bit, roll it up, take a hit
Feelin’ lit feelin’ light, 2 am summer night.
I don’t care, hand on the wheel, drivin drunk, I’m doin’ my thing
Rollin the Midwest side and out livin’ my life getting’ out dreams
People told me slow my roll I’m screaming out fuck that
Imma do just what I want lookin’ ahead no turnin’ back
if I fall if I die know I lived it to the fullest
if I fall if I die know I lived and missed some bullets
so today was pretty retarted. i went to school late, yet again so i didnt have to see the fly squadren dudes that i have seen every year since kindergarten. first block was okk we did nothing and second bombed my test. come gym it got better but lunch i got really mad at steve britt for running his mouth and not shutting up. also me and my friend or “friend” however you would like to put it, are fighting. why idk people tell her i said something about her and was talking shit. and i for one know i was not… i know how to be a true friend and i know how to stay honest to people. and she couldnt get that across. one thing that is really bothering is when your best friend tells you basically that she doesnt trust you. like come on i thought we’re best friends i trust you why dont you trust me. at the end of the day i called her because i was tired of texting and recieving 50 millions text messages at once. i was extremly heated just going off because i needed to vent. but i felt whenever i tried to say something i was just get shut out. so i hung up (and when i hang up you know there is a problem). then she called back and i finally got my some what turn to talk. i said what i needed told her i said nothing but sadly she still did not believe me. and i was just getting tired of fighting so i was going to apologize just to get it over and done with and move on and try to work things out. but then she said something that really hurt me something that really pushed it over the limits, i drew the line there and hung the phone up on her and turned it off. later i texted her saying do not talk to me and expressed why. i feel i did the right thing but yet i also feel it could have been prevented. i honestly feel this isnt my fault, i may have let my anger get in my way but i truthfully and honestly did not lie and she wasnt going to have it, so why do i do right?
just drama lately has been driving me up the walls. im so tired of uxbridge i dont go to school anymore like maybe i will go once a week for a whole day, and by the end of the day im pooped out. so much has gone on in the year and its caused people to think twice about me. many people have awful things to say about me and truthfully so be it, i really dont care what people say about me. all those things use to bother me but after going through as much as i have i sappose you get use to it and it doesnt bother you at all. its their opinion they do have a right to think what they want even if its wrong and they misjudge me, but im confident enough to hold my head high and hopefully one day prove them all wrong. i stay strong through no matter what, and thats how i’m going to be you cant change me… not again.